Carwreek
the pipes in my car has a leak!
and both backbreaks doesn't break at all which means that my frontbreaks are the only ones stopping the car
and also the thing that holds my frontwheels together has a little gap so to make it easy Im driving a wreek!
I have to take it to service and then buy stuff and then take it back to a safetycheck!
So until that happens I have to get on a bus and train as usual!
I hate my car right now! This pussywagon is broken!
and both backbreaks doesn't break at all which means that my frontbreaks are the only ones stopping the car
and also the thing that holds my frontwheels together has a little gap so to make it easy Im driving a wreek!
I have to take it to service and then buy stuff and then take it back to a safetycheck!
So until that happens I have to get on a bus and train as usual!
I hate my car right now! This pussywagon is broken!
Do you know where your love is
Sentimental ofcourse!
I can't write this blog in swedish anymore!
It would be weird! I could write it in danish but that won't work either!
Now this song is really good sad but good!
One republic did it again.
After bad news a friday like this you need som sad music! some crying and some laughing and then you are done!
Does who still feel sadness come over to my place! Im making waffles with whipped cream and strawberry jelly!
One Republic - Say all I need
I can't write this blog in swedish anymore!
It would be weird! I could write it in danish but that won't work either!
Now this song is really good sad but good!
One republic did it again.
After bad news a friday like this you need som sad music! some crying and some laughing and then you are done!
Does who still feel sadness come over to my place! Im making waffles with whipped cream and strawberry jelly!
One Republic - Say all I need
I'm falling in love with my favorite team!
What a day! what a competition! what a team!
We where nervous really not expecting anything and we also wasn't any good! Or that's what we felt!
All the practice before the competition was really not that great!
But when we got out there and the music came on I cried while I was on the floor as coach!
I was proud of them before this but now this is something that has changed everything in me!
They are the best team to train not of what they can but who they are!
We took silver in both exercise and we took it all the way without thinking about what prize or anything!
We had an incredible day with lots of laughters and joy and fun and jumping around!
Having a group that has the same energi and commitment as their coaches can take us all the way to gold one day!
But best of all we kicked ass all the way and we didn't stop there!
Even the champions that took gold our competitions that had been training for 4 years and the champions of male-class where screaming and shouting
"Shit they are really good" and we have that on tape! They where screamin and cheering for us and realizing how damn good we are for being a beginnersteam that just started training together for two months ago!
With injuries!
Im proud yes I am! proud of myself because my boys and girls see me as their leader that made them who they are and I see them as champions that made me a better trainer!
We where nervous really not expecting anything and we also wasn't any good! Or that's what we felt!
All the practice before the competition was really not that great!
But when we got out there and the music came on I cried while I was on the floor as coach!
I was proud of them before this but now this is something that has changed everything in me!
They are the best team to train not of what they can but who they are!
We took silver in both exercise and we took it all the way without thinking about what prize or anything!
We had an incredible day with lots of laughters and joy and fun and jumping around!
Having a group that has the same energi and commitment as their coaches can take us all the way to gold one day!
But best of all we kicked ass all the way and we didn't stop there!
Even the champions that took gold our competitions that had been training for 4 years and the champions of male-class where screaming and shouting
"Shit they are really good" and we have that on tape! They where screamin and cheering for us and realizing how damn good we are for being a beginnersteam that just started training together for two months ago!
With injuries!
Im proud yes I am! proud of myself because my boys and girls see me as their leader that made them who they are and I see them as champions that made me a better trainer!
A champion is someone who gets up, even when he can't
-Jack Demsey-
-Jack Demsey-
scrambled eggs
mmm eggs! don't you love a big chunk of eggs in the morning...Having bacon to that is like foreplay, a threesome and then dinner.
Anyways...I don't have time to eat breakfast..No that I can't do since Im off to landscrown to eat breakfast there during a competition...actually I will eat breakfast at the judges lounges and then I eat candy at my judging table...I love eating candy while seeing gymnasts jumps up and down...
Who cares if I eat a kilo of candy? I still have to rush after my own groups competition tomorrow to practice more gymnastics and then on monday maybe if I care less I go to aikido at lund but I just hate it there...They are mean and rude...
At malmö we train and then we wrestler! that's how a true wrestler goes!
Anywhooo I have to leave to Landskrona...Viva la competition!
Anyways...I don't have time to eat breakfast..No that I can't do since Im off to landscrown to eat breakfast there during a competition...actually I will eat breakfast at the judges lounges and then I eat candy at my judging table...I love eating candy while seeing gymnasts jumps up and down...
Who cares if I eat a kilo of candy? I still have to rush after my own groups competition tomorrow to practice more gymnastics and then on monday maybe if I care less I go to aikido at lund but I just hate it there...They are mean and rude...
At malmö we train and then we wrestler! that's how a true wrestler goes!
Anywhooo I have to leave to Landskrona...Viva la competition!
Tonight you're falling in love
Why do I have to catch a cold again!
Maybe it's to early to wear a dress...to cold outside maybe? who cares!
Tonight is the night before the last practice before the competition for my gymnasts..
I have to buy some hairspray...I have to look pretty to...I ain't no shame ladies do your thing...
But what I do need is to get well before the competition and look good also...
It's going to be a tight schedule! rush in change makeup and fix hair...Ofcourse we have to fix my hair before my gymnasts...
And then afterwards I have to hide...Hide away from that gymnast/leader that I accidently smacked in a course...
I didn't smack him in that way but more like friendly highfive on his oversweaty abs after a tzuka (a volt)
my gymnasts told me that I shouldn't wash my hands after that...what the hell!
ofcourse every little girl under the age of 15 thinks that he is supercute...I just think it's a bit überkväm!
Maybe it's to early to wear a dress...to cold outside maybe? who cares!
Tonight is the night before the last practice before the competition for my gymnasts..
I have to buy some hairspray...I have to look pretty to...I ain't no shame ladies do your thing...
But what I do need is to get well before the competition and look good also...
It's going to be a tight schedule! rush in change makeup and fix hair...Ofcourse we have to fix my hair before my gymnasts...
And then afterwards I have to hide...Hide away from that gymnast/leader that I accidently smacked in a course...
I didn't smack him in that way but more like friendly highfive on his oversweaty abs after a tzuka (a volt)
my gymnasts told me that I shouldn't wash my hands after that...what the hell!
ofcourse every little girl under the age of 15 thinks that he is supercute...I just think it's a bit überkväm!
I saw you dancing and I couldn't get you off my mind
They are a bunch of kids and probably younger then my little brothers!
And yes they are probably one of those mickey mouse disney hannah montana group off kids but the songs takes me back 8 years to when I was 14 years old dancing to happy songs like this thinking about who am I inlove with today and how good it felt to dance in my bedroom infront of the mirror and being happy for nothing..and just being immature and silly...
Not so different from not but still so long ago...
here you have metro station with "shake it"
P.s. This info is written about 5 minutes after that I published this blog...
The frontboy in this group is Miley Cyrus aka Hannah Montana mickey mouse clubs
older brother...There you have useless info about the Cyrus-family...Atleast one of them is talented!
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And yes they are probably one of those mickey mouse disney hannah montana group off kids but the songs takes me back 8 years to when I was 14 years old dancing to happy songs like this thinking about who am I inlove with today and how good it felt to dance in my bedroom infront of the mirror and being happy for nothing..and just being immature and silly...
Not so different from not but still so long ago...
here you have metro station with "shake it"
P.s. This info is written about 5 minutes after that I published this blog...
The frontboy in this group is Miley Cyrus aka Hannah Montana mickey mouse clubs
older brother...There you have useless info about the Cyrus-family...Atleast one of them is talented!
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This info is written 5 minutes after the other information above!
The frontboy is adopted so that is why there is a bit talent involved
The frontboy is adopted so that is why there is a bit talent involved
Dance with somebody!!
This is the song that team mix lugi will compete to!
Fabolous a la mando diao
Fabolous a la mando diao
I just wanna use your love tonight!
Lovely song haha!
It's like miami vice and baywatch all raped in one song! lovely!
Josie's on a vacation far away
Come around and talk it over
So many things that I wanna say
You know I like my girls a little bit older
I just wanna use your love tonight
I don`t wanna lose your love tonight
I ain`t got many friends left to talk to
No one`s around when I`m in trouble
You know I`d do anything for you
Stay the night, but keep it under cover
I just wanna use your love tonight,
oh I don`t wanna lose your love tonight
Try to stop my hands from shaking
Something in my mind`s not making sense
It`s been awhile since we`ve been all alone
I can`t hide the way I`m feeling
As you leave me, please, would you close the door
And don`t forget what I told you
Just cause you`re right, that don`t mean I`m wrong
Another shoulder to cry upon
It's like miami vice and baywatch all raped in one song! lovely!
Josie's on a vacation far away
Come around and talk it over
So many things that I wanna say
You know I like my girls a little bit older
I just wanna use your love tonight
I don`t wanna lose your love tonight
I ain`t got many friends left to talk to
No one`s around when I`m in trouble
You know I`d do anything for you
Stay the night, but keep it under cover
I just wanna use your love tonight,
oh I don`t wanna lose your love tonight
Try to stop my hands from shaking
Something in my mind`s not making sense
It`s been awhile since we`ve been all alone
I can`t hide the way I`m feeling
As you leave me, please, would you close the door
And don`t forget what I told you
Just cause you`re right, that don`t mean I`m wrong
Another shoulder to cry upon
Competition sil vous plait!
Yes sir!
Little me and my team are flying off to a competition this saturday...
OK we are not flying, we are driving and going south down down down we are going down
To Höllviken more likely...
We come in peace...Haha no screw peace! we come strong and hard like Lean mean Killing Machine...
None of us look like pretty little gymnasts with ponytails and curly hair!
We go hard and mean....We are the team that goes all in even through broken bones and blood sweat and Power...
No time for cuddle! the other teams can win all the little battles but we will win this war!
Little me and my team are flying off to a competition this saturday...
OK we are not flying, we are driving and going south down down down we are going down
To Höllviken more likely...
We come in peace...Haha no screw peace! we come strong and hard like Lean mean Killing Machine...
None of us look like pretty little gymnasts with ponytails and curly hair!
We go hard and mean....We are the team that goes all in even through broken bones and blood sweat and Power...
No time for cuddle! the other teams can win all the little battles but we will win this war!
what are you going to say in public?
No hard feelings, no bad feeling and definitly not a way to break up! There is still alot of love from me to him.
And Im not leaving him or letting him go and Im not going to say that he has done wrong since I can't even say that I did any wrongs but we don't feel bad...guilty maybe and anxious for answers and solutions to all something anything...
This song sums up everything that I ask everyday to myself and him and us and the song at the same time is the only answer we can get from now on and maybe the only answer I will get from this day and every other day in my life...
Take your time and tell me
Where you lie I realise
That we’ve been found out this time
We should stay together If we can
But what you’ve planned
Means there’s a difference between
What you’re gonna say
In private
You still want my love?
We’re in this together?
And what you’re gonna do
In public? Say you were never in love?
That you can remember?
So discreet
I never tried to meet your friends or interfere
I took a back seat between
And what you gonna say In private?
You still want my love?
We’re in this together?
And what you’re gonna do
In public?
Say you were never in love?
That you can remember?
What you gonna say?
When you run back to your wife?
I guess it’s just the story of my life
What you gonna say?
So take your time
And tell me
Where did you learn Oh,
I may publicise
That there’s a difference between
What you’re gonna say In private?
You still want my love?
We’re in this together?
And what you’re gonna do
In public?
Say you were never in love?
That you can remember
And Im not leaving him or letting him go and Im not going to say that he has done wrong since I can't even say that I did any wrongs but we don't feel bad...guilty maybe and anxious for answers and solutions to all something anything...
This song sums up everything that I ask everyday to myself and him and us and the song at the same time is the only answer we can get from now on and maybe the only answer I will get from this day and every other day in my life...
Take your time and tell me
Where you lie I realise
That we’ve been found out this time
We should stay together If we can
But what you’ve planned
Means there’s a difference between
What you’re gonna say
In private
You still want my love?
We’re in this together?
And what you’re gonna do
In public? Say you were never in love?
That you can remember?
So discreet
I never tried to meet your friends or interfere
I took a back seat between
And what you gonna say In private?
You still want my love?
We’re in this together?
And what you’re gonna do
In public?
Say you were never in love?
That you can remember?
What you gonna say?
When you run back to your wife?
I guess it’s just the story of my life
What you gonna say?
So take your time
And tell me
Where did you learn Oh,
I may publicise
That there’s a difference between
What you’re gonna say In private?
You still want my love?
We’re in this together?
And what you’re gonna do
In public?
Say you were never in love?
That you can remember
Friday the 13
Im gonna tell you about my friday the 13th...
No one will ever be able to come up to me and say that there is no way that bad things can happen...
Im the living prof of what has happened.
I decided that me and my group of gymnast that I train to change trainingday from thursday to friday...Silly me that I forget that it was friday the 13th...not that it matters at all...since we have just about a week before competition for the first time with this team...
6 Boys and 14 girls are going to compete next sunday...
Anyways...the trainingsession started off really well...everyone was quite for once and focused...
It was a calm chill traning that friday and just 30 min before the training would end...
We where training on the trampolin with double volts and when you do the double volts you have to keep your legs apart so that the head have some place to go...
One of my gymnast has been doing that volt many times before but something happen...
She held her legs closed to her and kept together...When she landed on the math she asked me if she had a nosebleed.
Im happy that I have a good eyesight and not halfblind like some people do and I could see from a couple of meters away that she was bleeding but she was bleeding on the top of her nose and something appears to look like a bone...
I jumped down on the math that she was lying on and slipped my hand under her neck to keep her head up so that she could breath. And I could feel and see the blood just flushing out from her nose like some kind of bad horror slasher jason movie...Where did I get my calmness from? I don't have a clue but I managed to keep her and the rest of the group amazingly calm...a miracle...
I lied to them...She asked me if she had broken her nose and I said calm and slowly "no honey you just got a bump, you look fine but we will call an ambulance just incase"
I was shaking when I called the ambulance but I managed to explain where we where and also what had happen and at the same time keeping her calm...And suprisingly she was really calm and laughed about the whole accident which was absolutly amazing.
The ambulance came after 15 minutes...during these 15 minutes it felt like 1 hour...She started to shake really hard in my hands and I still had my hands behind her neck and the other hand whipping blood from her face and keeping her breathing to not fall into a blackout because of chock...
Then the ambulance came and we went of to the hospital..I told the rest to just close the doors and that we would see each other on the next practice...
I heard one of the gymnast asking me if I had been thru this kind of accident before!
I lied and told them ofcourse I had been thru this 100 times before and I tried to smile and went into the ambulance...
I held her hands and made her think about fun things and told her stupid stories from my time as a gymnast and keep telling my girl that it looked worse then it is always...
And the doctor could stich her up and tejped and then her parents came to pick her up and I some how managed to calm them down...After some paper work we could all go home to rest...My gymnast with a broken nose but still full of energy and joy even through the accident...
as I was on my way to the centralstation I started to think about the accident and then right there at centralstation I started to get a panicattack...Now the chock hit me..It was alot of blood, a broken nose that you could see the bone...ambulance and a gymnast that was shaking and parents that where worried and stiches and needles and the sound of her nose breaking...
I saw the accident replayed over and over again in my mind and when I got home I couldn't sleep or eat I just staired at the wall and started crying....
I started to question my self as a trainer and as a gymnast and judge and everything about me and gymnastics...
I felt like I didn't deserved to be anybodys trainer after that and that everthing was my fault and I was scared that what if this happens again...what if it was me that made her do the volt? and now she has a broken nose...
I finally managed to sleep but the whole night I kept dreaming nightmares about her...and the accident....
the whole saturday I just walked around like a ghost and hating the fact that I had to get to the gymnastichall the next day to have another training after all that has happened and seeing the accident over and over again...
I decided to mail all the parents so that they wouldn't worry for their children at practice even though I had lost a big amount of confidence when it comes to being a trainer but I had to let the parents know that it happened and what I did about it...
Today during practice I felt good..even trough the nightmares and the image of the accident over and over again I had to just shut myself up and act like a trainer and not like a gymnast...And all my gymnasts where calm even after all...
And they where curious about how the doctor treated her and how she was feeling...
And now when I just arrived home I open my mail and had received alot of mail from the parents that my gymnasts after the accident went home and told their parents that "Lili was so cool"
It wasn't so bad maybe after all..I did my best and I did what a good trainer should do and my gymnasts they trust me even after this...my confidence is back and it feels ok...hopefully no more nightmares....
No one will ever be able to come up to me and say that there is no way that bad things can happen...
Im the living prof of what has happened.
I decided that me and my group of gymnast that I train to change trainingday from thursday to friday...Silly me that I forget that it was friday the 13th...not that it matters at all...since we have just about a week before competition for the first time with this team...
6 Boys and 14 girls are going to compete next sunday...
Anyways...the trainingsession started off really well...everyone was quite for once and focused...
It was a calm chill traning that friday and just 30 min before the training would end...
We where training on the trampolin with double volts and when you do the double volts you have to keep your legs apart so that the head have some place to go...
One of my gymnast has been doing that volt many times before but something happen...
She held her legs closed to her and kept together...When she landed on the math she asked me if she had a nosebleed.
Im happy that I have a good eyesight and not halfblind like some people do and I could see from a couple of meters away that she was bleeding but she was bleeding on the top of her nose and something appears to look like a bone...
I jumped down on the math that she was lying on and slipped my hand under her neck to keep her head up so that she could breath. And I could feel and see the blood just flushing out from her nose like some kind of bad horror slasher jason movie...Where did I get my calmness from? I don't have a clue but I managed to keep her and the rest of the group amazingly calm...a miracle...
I lied to them...She asked me if she had broken her nose and I said calm and slowly "no honey you just got a bump, you look fine but we will call an ambulance just incase"
I was shaking when I called the ambulance but I managed to explain where we where and also what had happen and at the same time keeping her calm...And suprisingly she was really calm and laughed about the whole accident which was absolutly amazing.
The ambulance came after 15 minutes...during these 15 minutes it felt like 1 hour...She started to shake really hard in my hands and I still had my hands behind her neck and the other hand whipping blood from her face and keeping her breathing to not fall into a blackout because of chock...
Then the ambulance came and we went of to the hospital..I told the rest to just close the doors and that we would see each other on the next practice...
I heard one of the gymnast asking me if I had been thru this kind of accident before!
I lied and told them ofcourse I had been thru this 100 times before and I tried to smile and went into the ambulance...
I held her hands and made her think about fun things and told her stupid stories from my time as a gymnast and keep telling my girl that it looked worse then it is always...
And the doctor could stich her up and tejped and then her parents came to pick her up and I some how managed to calm them down...After some paper work we could all go home to rest...My gymnast with a broken nose but still full of energy and joy even through the accident...
as I was on my way to the centralstation I started to think about the accident and then right there at centralstation I started to get a panicattack...Now the chock hit me..It was alot of blood, a broken nose that you could see the bone...ambulance and a gymnast that was shaking and parents that where worried and stiches and needles and the sound of her nose breaking...
I saw the accident replayed over and over again in my mind and when I got home I couldn't sleep or eat I just staired at the wall and started crying....
I started to question my self as a trainer and as a gymnast and judge and everything about me and gymnastics...
I felt like I didn't deserved to be anybodys trainer after that and that everthing was my fault and I was scared that what if this happens again...what if it was me that made her do the volt? and now she has a broken nose...
I finally managed to sleep but the whole night I kept dreaming nightmares about her...and the accident....
the whole saturday I just walked around like a ghost and hating the fact that I had to get to the gymnastichall the next day to have another training after all that has happened and seeing the accident over and over again...
I decided to mail all the parents so that they wouldn't worry for their children at practice even though I had lost a big amount of confidence when it comes to being a trainer but I had to let the parents know that it happened and what I did about it...
Today during practice I felt good..even trough the nightmares and the image of the accident over and over again I had to just shut myself up and act like a trainer and not like a gymnast...And all my gymnasts where calm even after all...
And they where curious about how the doctor treated her and how she was feeling...
And now when I just arrived home I open my mail and had received alot of mail from the parents that my gymnasts after the accident went home and told their parents that "Lili was so cool"
It wasn't so bad maybe after all..I did my best and I did what a good trainer should do and my gymnasts they trust me even after this...my confidence is back and it feels ok...hopefully no more nightmares....
Im ill ill so ill
Lili little me lil' Lili is ill Lili....
I have a cold and my head is like pumpkin...My face all puffy and I can't see, hear or breath...but don't worry Im still cute!
The only problem is that I have alot of work to do and as soon as I sit infront of a computer I get nosebleed and headache and also I can't train since from the start I don't have any strength to begin with and now with the cold Im even weeker...
And I have a nose-spray with me incase I can't breath but the thing is I have a huge fear for nose-sprays
To me it's the source of all evil...I hate the feeling and I hate to have to put it in my nose and then oh looky there I have to put it up my nose again...once things has been up my nose during my cold I don't want to put it there again...
And I have to count to three before I spray...
Im lying now! I count to about 30 seconds...Since Im scared like hell...
It's the same thing with eyedrops...I rather get a fully brasilian wax then to put drops in my eyes...
To hell with this cold...
Im done...
P.S. the blog is back...and along the way I've seen many people starting blog after blog...
Why are you even trying?
Second place is always first loser!
I have a cold and my head is like pumpkin...My face all puffy and I can't see, hear or breath...but don't worry Im still cute!
The only problem is that I have alot of work to do and as soon as I sit infront of a computer I get nosebleed and headache and also I can't train since from the start I don't have any strength to begin with and now with the cold Im even weeker...
And I have a nose-spray with me incase I can't breath but the thing is I have a huge fear for nose-sprays
To me it's the source of all evil...I hate the feeling and I hate to have to put it in my nose and then oh looky there I have to put it up my nose again...once things has been up my nose during my cold I don't want to put it there again...
And I have to count to three before I spray...
Im lying now! I count to about 30 seconds...Since Im scared like hell...
It's the same thing with eyedrops...I rather get a fully brasilian wax then to put drops in my eyes...
To hell with this cold...
Im done...
P.S. the blog is back...and along the way I've seen many people starting blog after blog...
Why are you even trying?
Second place is always first loser!
